Living life

Wow...its been so long

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 03:21:02 GMT

Wow!!!!
It has been a long time since I've last been on here....alot has happened...
I started dating so jackass name James...well I put up with his shit 4 almost a year...then i finally left him...the whole time he lived with me in my apartment in newport news he treated me wrost....but i'm back home now...and I'm gay...yes I'm serious...I have the greatest girl in the wrold...i wake next to her and go to sleep next 2 her...i love it and i love her...well I'm off to bed....
untill later....hugs and kisses
goodnight

Crimson

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 04:53:46 GMT

I feel it welling up inside and Robert Smith lied
boys do cry
and with blood tears in my eyes i'm an Anne Rice novel come to life
i can't hide the monster any more
one can only feel desolate for so long
until one starts to change into something the mirror doesn't recognise
i metamorphasize
the darkness has been biding its time to claim its latest victim
fresh meat for carnal desire to become what i became
i viewed the sun for the last time
will you still hold me when you seen what i have done?
will you still kiss me the same when you taste my victims blood?
so crimson and red i feel it flowing from your lips
my heart is dead and so are you
and it pulses through, the desire to chance
to deconstruct all of my past failings
but where to begin because when you live in sin its hard to look at saints
without them reflecting their jet black auras onto you
and all i have is hope
my inner burn's not fading
i'll wipe the blood from my cheek and get on with my day
and all i have i hope
and all i need is time to bury in pine under six feet of time the lies i told about myself
claw my way out
pick the splinters from under my fingernails
i won't lose hope
i won't give in
just live and breathe and try not to die again

my god its been some time

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 06:36:38 GMT

Man its been sometime since i was last on here...not alot has happen...been to a few hunted places...smoked some(u know what)staying out to all hours.
Well my dads in afganistan...(blow some ragheads up daddy)ummm have to have surgury...quit my job...my friend has a bf....my best friend is haveing a baby...my car broke...my 19th b-day sucked ass...got three new tattoos...became a myspace whore(LOL)havent had sex in quite awhile...been bored out of my mind.
other than that...thats about it.

never been there....never will

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 02:21:36 GMT

wow....its been sometime.....well besides me working have been doning much of anything else...but hanging around gloucester finding things to do....we do stupid shit like mess around on aboandon streets.
Got branded last night.LOL.working at kingsgate now...got my car and my life to run LOL.
Dont really have much to say nothing really interresting just really really tired.
so laterrs

hey guys

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 23:23:55 GMT

you should go to myspace and check out my page a picture of my new tattoo is there....laterzs!!

YEAH!!!!

Tue, 31 May 2005 23:00:46 GMT

I got my tattoo.....it hurts like a bitch....but everyone says its nice....i dont know havent seen it yet....

what a day LOL j/k

Mon, 16 May 2005 03:07:39 GMT

It was boring as hell...i didnt get up untill like 2 this afternoon....and didnt do anything all day...went to the beach and hung out with heather...watched tv then picked up my sister and thats it...its raniy and my knee and wrist hurts...then i found out that the concert i was going to tommorrow night has been canceled....i'm pissed.
laterzs

WoWWWWWW

Sat, 14 May 2005 23:37:17 GMT

Wow what a weekend....
Well Friday me and my sister lisa went to bush gardens....we had soooo much fun.I went on my first rollercoaster...you should have seen my face LOL Apollos chariot scared me the worst.but i'm still alive(i hope) LOL..it was a blast.
I came home and went and got my friend ashley from work and she came over my house for the night...well we decided we wanted to see a movie...but we wantend to go to the one across the bridge...so we did the only bad thing was that i couldnt remeber were it was...we got lost like 2 times and had to stop and ask for directions...we finally made it then they told me i couldnt buy 2 tickets 2 see house of wax so we needed up seeing monster-in-law we didnt get back untill like 1 in the morning...we had fun.
Today i took ashley home...but she came back over....me and my sister washed the 3 vehicels...then i took ashley to another town then i took her home...i came back home took a shower then i went to see house of wax...it was awesome!!!!GO SEE IT!!!!!!
Well now i'm bored out of my head....my sister stephanie is in NC and my sister lisa went with her friend jamie.
I have nothing to do and nothing to say LOL.
So untill later.
kisses ttyl

i know i just posted...but wanted to send this out to all that i love

Fri, 13 May 2005 02:08:01 GMT

stars have 5ends, squares have4 ends, triangles have3 ends, lines have2 ends, life has1 end, but i hope our friendship has no end

Although its quite a statement, Well it happens 2 b true. The best friend i ever had, Im glad 2 say its u!

Smiles 'n' Tears, Giggles 'n' Laughs, Late nite calls 'n' Cute fotographs, ill b rite here till da day of ma death best friends forever till ma very last breath!!

The years will come the years will go but with each 1 i wil always know whichever way the road may bend u wil always be my best friend

when it hurts 2 look back & ur scared 2 look ahead, just look beside u & i will b there.

i cant txt u roses or fax u my heart.id email u kisses but wed stil b apart.i luv u 2 pieces n just wish ud c dat i care 4 u so much coz u mean da world 2 me.

Many ppl will wlk in and out of ur life.but only tru friends will leave foot prints in ur heart. . . . .u left urs in mine -x-

what a day LOL j/k

Fri, 13 May 2005 02:04:09 GMT

well frist i didnt get up till about 12 in the afternoon...went to get my sisters from...went to the beach...fell asleep....i think i was in the sun to long...have a killer headache...my sister too.
Then ran an arand for my mom then me and my sister went to see our friend ashley at work..i came home and finished watching garfield(so cute!!!) then went to pick ashley up from work and brought her home.
Going to see static lyallby on monday...then were going to see lifehouse on the 20th...then abounch of bands(underoath...sum 41...harwthorn hieghts...unwritten law to name a few)on the 22 and hopfully were going to see breakin benjamin and three days grace on the 28th(we most likely will).
Got fried from wally world(i'm so glad(LOL)!!!
Tomorrow i might go to bush gardens(military appreciation day...its free for me since i'm military).
Wish i had some more friends...LOL....but i got what i need....my sisters....their my best friends!!!!
Here is something that was on my mind while i was on the plane coming back home...tell me what u think....

Do we all have a killer inside?
Are we able to take someones life??
What if it was our life or theirs???Would u do it then??
What if u were told to kill that persaon?
What if that person was someone u loved???
Could u get angry enough to take a human life?
We all have a killer inside ...you just have to control it.
Can u???

What if I was 2 fall?
What if I needed your help 2 get out of the hole i dug myself??
Would u be there?
Would u hold me high...and never let me go???
I need you.
I love u my love...these are my last words.

Till later....kisses

wassssss up???

Thu, 12 May 2005 00:43:35 GMT

hey everyone....i'm back in the big VA!!!!
Me and my sis went everywhere today!!!!We had fun i guess(ask her)LOL
well i'm really tired just wanted to send a holla out!!

life sucks LOL

Tue, 10 May 2005 05:02:15 GMT

Hey everyone....i'm going home...
today how do i start????
well i went to PCB and thought i would have a little fun...but no that didnt happen. had to watch 4 kids that were all acting like monkeys....not only were they acting bad...my little bro (dont laugh)hes 3 scratched the shit out of my face because i wouldnt let him run around the store...then i had this nosey ass old bitch staring me up and down like i was doing something wrong...everyone was watching me beacuase they were screaming like i was killing them...they dont listen to a thing I say...it kills me....i miss my sisters sooooooo much, yeah we have our days(who doesnt?) but they arent as bad as a bunch of kids....
well later have to fix like 6 screens and drag a big ass total gym into the house.... and get this shit i've had 1 soda this whole day and havent even eaten yet.
so laterzs.

hey

Mon, 09 May 2005 03:09:18 GMT

OMFG i had a fucked up night...everything went wrong....didnt feel good alll day...had 2 go out that wasnt fun at all....well i'm dead tired.
ttyl

hey everyone

Sun, 08 May 2005 06:17:50 GMT

Hey everyone.....still here in florida....miss everyone so bad.....

florida has been okay...alot of BS, but thats nothing new. It was all cool the frist week but then it got like it was before,but she knows better than to hit me,and i dont take any shit,i'll give it right back.

missed my sisters prom (omg what would happen if i missed her wedding??LOL) i'm sorry lele.lots and lots of pics i hope.Cant wait to get back to where my true friends and family are.

well just wanted to drop by....got to hit the sack....only 3 more days and i'm home.

kisses

hey there...just something on my mind

Sat, 07 May 2005 07:35:50 GMT

So whats life about???
When does it end??
When does it begin???
Where do i go fromhere??
Who am i to meet??
What am i to do with this life i was givin??
Do i end it now...or do i keep on going...hoping...waiting,what am i waiting for???
Who am i waitng for???
Why am i just sitting here and waiting??
I can golook...request...ask...beg...pled...or do i just sit and wonder and ask myself why i'm just waiting?
Wonder what i can do to achevie this goal of finding myself...maybe i'm just lost...maybe i'm completley alone...wondering why i'm wondering...wishing there was more to this quest of finding myself???
or am i completley gone...gone forever...alone in this sick world.
Someone save me,anyone???
SAVE ME FROM MYSELF!!!